Monday, November 19, 2007
My feelings now are like taking something sweet and bitter, put them into the mixer and mix.
Just when I feel happiness, they'll be there to share their outings story and jealousy overwhelmed my happiness. Forever like that. They always get what I want. Everything and everthing. And when I think about the situtation between us, I slowly learn how to think like an adult. But this is suffering. It sure does.
No matter how hard we tried, we can never be like them. Never. Im way too greedy. I always wanted to the the outstanding one. But under this situtation... unless I disappeared for 2 - 3 months and chiong like hell. Sometime, I just wanted to learn how to be contented with what I have. But just when Im starting to learn how to be, they'll be there with something new again.
Too much things to worry. Too much things to learn.
Too much~
I wish they are out of my life!Baby,Teach me...Teach me how to be contented with what I have...Save me, please.
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
10:31 AM