Sunday, October 28, 2007
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN
Im finally able to blog after 1.day.of.vomit.day AND i missed out the outing with my girlfriends on saturday lar! T_T
Started to feel very uncomfortable in the late afternoon on friday and i started to vomit in the midnight. Kept tossing right and left to find a comfortable position to rest, end up kissing the wall !! boyfriend look after me all 2 days and 2 night til this morning boyfriend's friend send me home.
Sim2 for a while and then audition. Next search for what kinda movie we wanna catch and lastly, blogging.
And.and.and this is my house in sim2 !!!
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
3:39 PM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Boyfriend,From me to you.As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need
In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you
When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need youDear,If someone were to ask me what I really want in my lifeI'll pull you over to my sideGive you the warmest hugGently kiss you on your lips and say proudly " You are the only one in my life"Because without you, im nothingBut ever since you step into my life, Im the most happiness woman under the skyUnder your care, I fear nothingYou ask me how much I love you last nightIt's more than you can imagineIt's higher than the sky, wider than the seaAnd and and it's bigger than the Universe of UniverseIf I had a chance to plant my love somewhereI'll choose to plant it in the core of this planetBecause I believe that with the power of our loveEarth will be more beautiful than it is now
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
1:35 PM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
WAD THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE MAPLE!is it having a donkey server check or new donkey patch is coming up?ORis my donkey maple spoil?argh... im back from since since 1 plus. And up til now, i dont have the chance to touch my donkey maple! wtf man!
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
6:15 PM
BOoHoOHOo~I have a long entry to post today. Just came back form school. Another normal day i say. okie. let's get start with the post from... Monday? Ended school early on monday, nothing much to do so ying and i headed to Jurong entertainment for some singing. took some pictures while sing and we are having fun there.
aftermath, something unpleasant happened to boyfriend and me and ying and me ended up at boyfriend's company waiting for him. both ying and i got drenched cause it pours in the evening. headed straight to boyfriend house after he got off from work and then things started to go the wrong side. boyfriend start to vomit like nobody business and i felt so helpless can! omg~ Seeing him sick til like this and i couldnt do a single shit to help makes me feel so useless and then i drop a few tears in front of him. all the way til 4am plus then we finally can get some rest on his bed. and all the way til the next day 7pm plus then we open our eyes. gave school a miss. we took a deep long nap and boyfriend's fever is finally gone. rest awhile and relax then boyfriend sent me home. another day just pass like that.Boyfriend,please take good care of yourself. never let yourself to be so sick again. it's hurt me alot in my heart see you so sick and yet there's nothing i can do to help you to feel better. please take care of yourself, wei ler wo. hao mar?! And and and! dont hu so much!! Love you miss you muacks!
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
2:02 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
--20 October 2007--First of all...HAPPY BIRTHDAY to boyfriend.Accompany boyfriend the whole day yesterday. And he was supposed to work yesterday but he 'took off' or rather self declared holiday just for me ><><--21 October 2007--Boyfriend's off to work. Poor thing. Sunday also habe to work OT. What the donkey hell was that company doing. Boyfriend is JUST a tem.worker down there. Make him work like Pem.stuff and the pay was like. Zzz. Shit them. Things goes so unhappy early in the morning. Boyfriend's donkey sister. Makes me!! Makes me!! Makes me nearly threw my temper at boyfriend. I have this donkey temper which no matter what cannot change due to the 'training' from papa. This werid -Early.disturb.my.sleep.temper- kill almost all my family members when they wake me up by forcing and WHEN im not haven enough sleep yet. And that donkey sister force boyfriend to wake me up and that makes me @%$%$&@#$% !!! Forget it. Luckily boyfriend know how to wake me up without letting my temper out. phew. Else. i guess we are going to have a cold war again. all because of !!! %$$&^#%^#$ !!! Zzz.Couldnt sleep after boyfriend cab.ed me home. so currently mapling and D.L bleach 144~That's all for now.
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
10:05 AM
Friday, October 19, 2007
I couldnt sleep anymore after receving boyfriend's message in the middle of the night. wow? so sweet? NO! we quarrel almost everything under the sky. He's starting to work. And im starting to miss him like hell. Everything is going the wrong side. Nothing i do is correct. All i want is a little caring message from him once in a while. I've been waiting and waiting every minutes and every seconds. I just couldnt concentrate on anything but keep on missing him. My life is ruin. So ruined. I know i have to be prepared once boyfriend start working. I thought it's easy to control as we can always contract with each other no matter when. I thought it's easy to control as we get to meet after work no matter what happens. hahas. I thought, i thought, i thought. you thought i think who confirm.I just dont know what to do now. Just what can i do to stop letting the devil out of me. The devil is slowly crawling out without boyfriend around me. My tempers gets worst every seconds without boyfriend. My life is just so messy without boyfriend. Even for a second. I couldnt think properly without boyfriend.My life is ruin. I wasnt like that before. I wasnt like that before boyfriend fills up my life with full of colours. And now. These colour are fading away fast. There's no way we can meet anymore. He's starting work so donkey early. Ending work at a donkey time. After that damn tired.He's plan for everyday is start and end work at a donkey time and damn tired after work. Going home to rest after work. And my job is to miss him evey single seconds once i open my eyes. To waiting for his little caring message every single seconds. oh please god, please teach me what can i do? what i can i do stop missing him so much. What can i do to stop giving him problems. What can i do to stop the devil inside me from crawling out fast.boyfriend,arbo you tell me what can i do to stop all this. Teach me how?Im lost~
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
3:57 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
My life was never been so colourful before you step into my life.Im glad that ive found you and that you are the one.Im missing you.Im losing control.Perhaps its time to get back a little and not relying so much on you.I need time to adjust.So broken down. Lying dead. Going out*
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
7:55 PM
Socond post for the day. Ended school early today. Went back home after that, it's been so so long since i go home straight after school. i'll normally go boyfriend and peii him. Boyfriend told me before that he loves to see me once he wake up so i used to went there happily to kiss him gently on his forehead as a form of im here. then disturb him to wake him up. i guess im not going to have that chance anymore. He's too busy to even sms me now. busy working. after work, so tired. go home fall asleep right away. i knew it. i just knew it that days would be so different once boyfriend start working. im so alone now~ so boring.I miss boyfriend!!
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
2:26 PM
Its another new day and im here to blog before going to school. I guess boyfriend has already gone to work. Still quite sleepy after bathing. Has been tossing away through the nights these days. Couldnt sleep no matter how donkey tired i am. Has been sleeping on boyfriend's bed since dont know when and this resulting being "stranger" to my OWM donkey bed. Zzz. But luckily i've got something to do when i couldnt sleep. Big days are coming and i couldnt wait for it to come.awww~ im so lazy to go school today. As my donkey Time-Table is with ah gong, i wonder what time lesson will end today? omg~ohohoh! my donkey maple just lvled yesterday and im so happy can. ^^dChiong chiong!! Boyfriend,im going crazy without donkey you beside me. im starting to think crazy-ily without donkey you.My mind just couldnt work properly without donkey you. you are only working tempoary it's only the second day and i've gone crazy.i guess im just so not going to get used to the days where i have only so little hours with donkey you.couldnt get donkey you out of my mind. couldnt concentrate on anything.i miss donkey you so boyfriend! please do something to cure my donkey craziness ><
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
8:12 AM
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Im back to blogging again. Second post for the day. Self declared holiday for today. Wanted to lvl my maple since im so awake now. But stupid maple is having server check, and i wonder would it take long?Realised that other than boyfriend, maple and editing blog, my life is so fcking restless can~ Zzz. So!Boyfriend's working. No time for me.Maple's under server check. No maple for me.Im left with blog. and so i took 1hr plus just to edit one small little potion of my blog. I've change my song to Jolin's new ablum. One of my favourite song. Edited the lyrics as well. Added a related video. all under the same potion and it took me 1 donkey hour. Zzz.After editing my donkey blog, im left with nothing to do. Havent decide what to do next. shall start thinking once im done with my donkey blogging and sending sms to boyfriend.Choices to choose from What-should-I-do-next:Added not long before derr Sims2?Havent been play for awhile derr Audition?My favourite Wedding dash ( older vision is diner dash)?Lame game Fever Fenzy?Sian. What lesson will i be having if im now in school? What are my girls doing now in class? Is my new teacher fierce or funny? How many didnt make it to school like me? Zzz. Stupid questions!argh! im off for games. recalling back to what donkey happened just now boils my blood again.hmmm. come to think of it. My donkey Time-Table is still with ah gong! What time lesson start tomorrow? omg! Donkey question. But who cares! School sux!!Blast off*
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
11:51 AM
Ying: Qi. help me tell teacher that i lai ang pain sorry not going to school.I tried to persuade her then in the end both of us showing attitude. both in the end never go school. haha! how great. Early in the morning i pissed so many people off and they blame me. what a day to start with. boyfriend : ( telling him that i not going school because ying not going) you dare you die.zzz. piss another one off. both my dearest. HAHA! great. great. nothing can be better than pissing people off early in the morning and they blame you. wahaha! this is just so great!im forever wrong when trying to care. FOREVER WRONG!! no matter to who. to my dearest friend. to boyfriend. to mummy. what ever lar!FUCK OFF!!!in the end im all alone crying here! FUCK!@$##^$%@&%^*#$% !!!UNFATHOMABLEThat word describle about me. so hard to fully understand.Ya! im hard to understand~Often misunderstand people.People like me are forever in the wrong, no matter what they do.Boyfriend,JiayouS in working~ my luck is still with you so you should be fine. Sorry for pissing you off early in the morning.Good luck.
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
9:02 AM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
There goes my one day holiday. Accompany boyfriend to town for his urgent interview. So last min and every is so rush. lols. waited for boyfriend outside the company, hoping to hear good news from him and yes! he did have a good new. one good new and one bad new.Good new is he can start work tomorrow and the bad new is the working hour is long and im goona miss him like hell. Head back to west mall after boyfriend's interview. had KFC for dinner and then straight to the condo. boyfriend's aunty is coming back to singapore from dont know where and we waited for her. Had a little talk and head back home as tomorrow got school. Got lots of chocolate from boyfriend's aunty. Think that's all for now~
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
11:55 PM
--First day of school--First thing i did today for school is of cause is to get prepared and make sure ying is ready for school too. Getting ying up and making sure that she's going to school with me is my new responsibility for this term as she is now offically in KL(my class). Got my result's back. It disappointed me. i got only 2 for the last semster and the overall is 2.8~I've to pull up my socks and work harder this semster as this is the last semster ler. First day of the school, so no lessons are conducted. we ended school early and we had our lunch in school. It's good to have ying by my side everytime. And now, we are even in the same class. Days are going to be fun~Waited for the rain to stop before heading straight to boyfriend derr house. Took a super long "nap" that i felt to weak when i woke up. Ate boyfriend's mummy delicious derr cooking and im strong once again~Knowing that "qing fa mama, bai ban korkor and hong zhong jiejie" is calling me, i get my gang to have a majong session. Im a da ying jia today. aftermath, headed home with boyfriend and now im installing Sim2 as well as blogging.Boyfriend's having interview tomorrow and im here to wish boyfriend good luck for his interview and hope that he got some kinda job that he likes.jiayou jiayou!!Boyfriend,giving all my luck to you for tomorrow's interview and hoping to hear some good news from you.but must remember to give them back to me. wakaka.anqii loves you!
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
3:10 AM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
NO WAY!She got it. It's so hurting. I want it too. im so jealous can~ omg. mummy's right. there's nothing in this world could let me feel satisfied. im a greedy person. everything want for the best. mummy also say, "Even if u own a whole shopping, u wont be satisfied!" well. i just want things for the best. oh lord, just why am i not born with at least a silver spoon. I dont need golds. I just want the things i love.But for that, im going to look for jobs and start saving for it. one for mummy if possible. will i be possible to be so hardworking and chiong for money? or would i be lazy abit and ask for more time with darling? can i have both of them? the human and the money. like ive said, im greedy.well. at least i had myself a nice watch that i fall in love with it at the first sight. at least there's something to console myself. at least i've to learn how to be contented.that's all. school's starting tomorrow and i hope everything goes well for at least the first day. no, first week, first month? argh. wadever~Baby,thank you for the companion for today as well as for the watch.I love you, baby.now and forever~
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
11:53 PM
FUCK!i got to retype agian and again!!something's wrong with this lappy.it's 3.39am, sunday now. couldnt sleep. currently mapling.having ks war now. rushing to sg map for ks war. omg. anqii just love ks war. wakaka.missing dear. missing yi. missing ying.haven been meeting those two bakas since ying started working. but dear is there for me ^^this coming monday is school reopening day and ying will be joinin my class for the rest of the semster. that's will be great ^^ wakaka!speaking about school and it remind me that i still got to hunt for the things i needed for school. and darling will be going shopping with me to hunt for the things i need. ^^baobei darling,i miss u~ i love you. my love for you will never fade. instead, it will keep on increase and increase until your world is full of my love ^^eek! mushy mushy ~wakaka!i really love you bryan chua.ohoh!! i found this cute little joke in one of my friend's bloggy.it goes...What a woman looks likeA woman was walking down the street when she was accosted by a particurlarly dirty and shabby-looking homless woman who asked her for a couple of dollars for dinner.The woman took out her purse, extracted ten dollars and asked, "if i gove you this money, will you buy a pair of shoes instead of dinner?""No, i had to stop buying new shoes years ago," the homeless woman replied."Will you use it to go shopping instead of buying food?" the woman asked."No i dont waste time shopping," the homelss woman said. "I need to spend all my time trying to stay alive.""Will you spend this on a beauty salon instead of food?" the woman asked."Are you NUTS!" replied the homless woman. "I havent had my hair cut done in 20 years!""Well," said the woman, "Im not going to give you money. Instead, im going to take you out for dinner with my hubby and myself tonight."The homeless woman was astounded. "Wont your hubby be furious with you for doing that? I know im dirty, and i probably smell pretty disgusting."The woman replied, "That's okay. It's importand for him to see what a woman looks like after she has given up shopping, hair appointments, and buying new shoes."
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
3:11 AM
Friday, October 05, 2007
I NEED SOME REFRESHMENTS!!I SERIOUSLY NEED SOME FUN!!I NEED MONEY!!I SERIOUSLY NEED A JOB!!I WANT SHOPPING!!GIRLS~ WHERE ARE YOU? IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE LAST SHOP TOGETHER!I dont know what's life going to be like when boy starts to work.Im afraid, but im not going to let him worry about me.I just hope everything's going smooth and fine for him.Get the job he likes, he's happy, im happy.Working hard together to archieve our dreams in future is about to unfold.I know it's going to be hard and maybe a little suffering but i know we can because i have confident in us.Baby,it's going to be a little hard on you because you've got to feed me until im graduate from ITE.And for that, i promised i'll do my best to get into poLy.After math, we work hard for our dreams together.I Love yOu
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
9:49 PM
Thursday, October 04, 2007
BLOGGER: ZHOUANQII
FEELING: SAD
SO NEAR YET SO FAR
IT'S TOO HEAVY FOR ME TO CARRY
AND I CAN NEVER CATCH UP WITH YOU
ARE WE REALLY DRIFTING APART?
why?
why am i so stupid?
how can i make him understand what im trying to say?
We can quarrel almost anything. Even if its a simple little thing. Things aint going the way i want to. I guess bad luck is knocking on my door. Theres nothing i do can be correct especially with this kinda fking attitude ive got. He's always the one who sacrifice for me. Hes the one whos always do things the way i want and the way i wish. Hes the one whos pampered me all the times.
Way too heavy~
HAHAS! normally when you read others blog, they will complain about how people mistreat them. How people get ill-treated by who and who. I guess im the only one that post this kinda post.
That's one thing.
Another thing is my result.
My darlings are bombarding me about hows my result. Hahas. I told them i forgot my password and i got to wait til school reopen and get a new password from our new CA. Well, frankly speaking. The reason why is because im so afraid to check on my result after knowing that all my darlings scored quite well and resulting me to forget my password.
Im afraid that i might be disappoint my boy. He spends so much time and energy teaching me and yet...
Anyway, im always disappointing him. wakakas ^^
ohya. At least i've done somthing today that i feel im happy with. It might be abit late but who cares.
Introducing my new blogskins ^^
Say byebye to the old one
And welcome the new one
That's all for now
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
7:46 PM
