Wednesday, November 30, 2005
she's confused...[[``about feelings]]
she's scare...[[``to be sad]]
she's lost...[[``in the world of love]]
she's hoping...[[``for freedom]]
she's weak..[[``though she seem to be strong]]
she's locking...[[``her feeling as well as her soul up]]
she's replacing...[[``love into hate]]
she's changing...[[``into another self,someone without feelings at all]]
she dun wan...[[``ppl to care about her]]
she dun wan...[[``to rely too much on ppl]]
she dun wan...[[``others to be sad]]
she dun wan...[[``ppl to ask why]]
she dun wan...[[``to cry]]
she dun wan...[[``to be sad again,for she might no take it]]
she wish...[[``fren to be on her side everyday]]
she wish...[[``to be her ownself once again, which is impossible]]
she wish...[[``maybe everyone to forget her]]
she wish...[[``*** **** to be on her side now,althought this ger*** **** is tootpid]]
she wish...[[``to dry up all her tears she's holdin for so long]]
she wish...[[``Jesus hasn't created her to be in this world]]
she can no longer be herself.. she will change into another self sooner or later...
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
1:49 PM
*yawN* -.-Zzz..!!
just wake up.. hmmm... yesterday forget to blog.. as i'm tryiing all my best to cool my grandson down.. nearly had a fight with this tootpid grandson.. haha.. actually.. not really.. i'm making him angry den let him vent his anger on me.. maybe he'll feel better this way.. hope he did.. this grandson of my.. haix.. keep everything to himself.. dunno wad he's thinking oso.. haix..
so.. i try all means to get him to cool down.. make ah ma cry oso.. this kuku narden boy.. well.. hu ask him to be my best fren's fren.. somemore my grandson..
he just likes to act strong.. but the inner parts of his is damn kuku weak.. i just hope he'll be alright in no time.. grandson ar..!! must be brave.. ah ma's here wif u!! anything kuku thing, come tell ah ma.. dun keep it to urself again..ok?? ;)
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
12:14 PM
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
sometime i wonder.. do all my best fren had already lost interest in volleyball..? i'm so sad..
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
2:39 PM
Monday, November 28, 2005
arhx~ wake up with a little fever.. cnt really pull myself up.. not even moving my fingers.. well.. cant blame anyone but me, myself.. i stayed up the whole night..playing games, do bloggie and listening to songs.. wa.. onli den i released tt it's already 6+am!! first time in my life.. my first record.. haha.. usually i cant pass my life without sleeping for at least 10 hrs+.. wOoohOoo.. haha..
as i'm blogging this.. my eyes were onli half opened.. i still got lobang later on..OMG!! going to catch some precious sleep again after blogging dis..
arhx... remembered tt i signed up the internet not long b4.. got a iPod containing 4GB..!! so.. yeaterday my mummy went to take it !! den half way.. she called me and ask me wad to bring for the collection.. i told her tt dis and dis is needed.. kuku.. she din bring one of the item out with her.. sobbie.. den cant collect lor.. got to wait until the next time.. :( wa.. i cant wait to use tt iPod..!!
hmmm..-.-Zz cnt tahan lehx.. going to my la la land soon.. tata.. will blog again.. mayb today..
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
11:44 PM
wow... damn tired..just come back from the badminton training... went dere wif ah gong, ah gu and da fu.. together went dere to learn hw to be a line judge..hew~ very hot dere and boring-.-"
den after two hr+ of training... finally released us.. wOoohOoo.. yeah.. den went eating dinner wif ah gong and ah gu... hmmm.. den went homiie lehx..hOoo.. reach home and wait for my hao hao to come and do the tootpid maple thing for me..but in the end..-.-!!! still cnt..!! arhx!!! i wan to cry lehx.. when can i start to maple!! sobie sobie..
miss him*
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
7:39 PM
arhx~ pain!! wake up without opening my eyes .. den i kissed the wall..hiax..
got to go out again.. fer the badminton training at PAYA LEBA!! so the kuku far..!!
i've been waitin fer someone's call.. a call from hu?? it's from the Giordano de..just went fer the interview with ah yuan, ah gong , ah gu and melene.. so.. this five of us went all the way to paya leba just for the interview den go eat.. den go homeie -_-"
haix.. life nowadays without frens by ur side all the time is really damn boring..
hahax.. remembered those days in skul, keep hoping the holidays to come den can rot at home.. or go out and play with frens.. haix.. and nw.. holidays came and everyone was busy looking fer jobs.. it's getting boring each and everyday.. I WANT SURPRISES!! :'(
will blog again tonight~
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
4:30 AM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
wake up early today to check on my maple again~
again... to my disppointment.. cnt play!! so damn it!!
hai~ forget it!! today.. miss my favourite show [pokemon] so sad.. :(
has been blogging for the whole day.. keep findin and finding.. den sign in msn.. kaox.. quarrel with ade.. tt kuku ger.. talk a lot of rubbish wif me..arhx..hahax.. miss all my fren since holidays come.. but nvm.. we still got a lot of lobangs with each other.. often go out with them nowadays.. go out find jobs together.. play together.. do everything together..miss euu guys worx..
hmmm.. den my ga lang gu ni papa [yan hao] called in in the middle night to chattie with me.. :) haix.. this papa of mine.. very funny like me de...
hope to go out wif euu guys again soon... really miss u!!
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
7:40 PM
Thursday, November 17, 2005
today.. wake up as usual.. 9 am... den get ready for skul.. haix.. go skul for one lesson onli.. so sian.. den went to wei long house to play the maple.. den the tootpid maple.. cnnot get in.. until five something lehx still cannot get in... how to train like that.. kaox..
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
9:40 AM
Saturday, November 12, 2005
today.. my fren jian jie birthday.. so.. i wake up at around 3pm.. den get ready to go to aunty house.. hahax.. den went dere with my hei pi[ah gu]..hahax.. den we play and play.. wow.. so shiok.. den after that.. i went to jie jie[cheng long] house.. fu*k.. recevied a call from mama.. den she ask me not to go home lehx.. since i dun wan to go home.. so chicken.. fine lorx.. dun go home den dun go home lorx.. wad's the big deal.. hump.. den blog this at jie jie house lorx.. hahax.. dun care about mummy lehx...
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
4:01 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
ka boo hoo hoo...
i'm blooging this at amos hz.. wanted to watch the wang zi bain qing wa.. so go his hz to watch together.. haha.. hmmm... y dun wan to go to dear hz and watch is because of a very tootpid reason.. haha..
after watching.. i use his internet lehx.. went in to change blog and post this..haha.. den found a song that i like and put it in the blog.. hmmm.. my tootpid cheng long jie jie oso like this song very much..
think that's all.. nothing much special happen this few days.. tt's y i din post for so long lehx..
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
10:20 AM
