Sunday, August 20, 2006
wOohOo~back from work~ate alot during working time~aunties dere were very good to me~espically ah may auntie~hahas.. she has a nick name dere.. created by me.. ( by accident )gao siao xing dong~ lols...today's wrking time was 0730am - 1230pm...woke up early today after having only 2 hrs of slp~was talkin to shu wei last night.. that's why i got to cut dw on my slp-ing hrs...talk alot ytd with him~found out that acutally he's quite daring~ oops..! hope he's not readin.. hahas..ok! back to topic... went to wrk this morning with a happy mood.. reason is because i'm working with ah may auntie today~ and another reason is... i finally can go shoppin...yea!hahas.. but i got to skip my vball training as i had already promised helene to go shopping.. hope jiao lian dun mind~ kekehmmm.. after work.. went straight homie.. nd some rest b4 i shop~ keke...den i had a long talk with papa.. papa keep saying is mummy's fault... den papa told me the whole story starting from the beginning... nearly cry out but i 'ren'i realised i really owed papa alot~ recalling back den... everyone in this family hate papa.. always tot that papa was in the wrong cox he dun trust mummy... and i came to realised that papa really got hurt deep dw in his heart... no body wans him back den.. i felt so bad... as a daughter.. i actually treat him so bad.. scolded him and dun even call him when he comes homie.. i used to hate him so much... i hope Jesus will forgive me~ i really understand how papa feel.. he's really hurt... so deep so deep~ imgine the whole family wouldn't want to stay/be with him after mummy offically divorce with papa...i really dunno wad will happen to him~ wil he feel lonely and such? will he ever feel regret for giving me a chance to live in this world? or will he still love me despite i treated him that way~i dunno wad to do now~ nobody understand papa~ even my sister and brother.. they really dun understand him.. and due to this reason~ my brother and sister might choose to live with mummy in future~ wad about me? i used to hate him alot and wan mummy and papa to divorce...haix...u see lahx~ this kinda daughter like me really is despicable !! hai.. i duuno wad else can i say~ in shity moody again~hai =( sianzation!
Im Fading away~ Slowly~
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